icarus wishes

do you remember when everything was
simple and easy and we knew best?
i hope you still know how to feel that way,
i hope i didn't take your smile,
the way i took everything else and dropped them
down the deep dark well of tomorrow.

do you remember how i'd jump in front of
a speeding bus or just an angry
bitch, to save you? maybe i was too subtle when
i said i love you, maybe you thought
i meant it wrong? love, i want to hold your hand
into forever, and i will. i'll find you.

do you remember when love mean kissing your mum and
holding hands with a boy? now it means
that all these people make me happy and i can't
choose; i won't choose. i'll love you all,
i may take different actions, but the love there
will be the same kind. the good kind.

do you ever wonder why no-one else seems to
know how much it hurts? they do, love,
they do. you are not alone, so don't be afraid.
i'll make you happy, i'll make it okay.
i'll build wings from pages of old mythology books 
and wax and everything we said we'd do.

i'll fly, love.
i'll fly over oceans and suns and those bad days,
the ones that make you break down,
the ones that take everything you lied about
turn on you an hurt you. i'll make it over them, and
you'll make it through them, and i promise

i'll be there for you, the way i should have been all long.